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11:01 a.m.jared: life is awesome when you have rudolph the red-nosed reindeer stuck in your head. and it's sept 5th. and you're wearing the ugliest shirt and tie ever.
jared: and it's even awesomer on days i'm sleeping on a bus bench in the cold, and when the bus reaks of people on a rainy day in downtown pomona at 1 am, and when you figure out that all this shit is a really big part of why life is so cool.
prophecy b o y: what?
prophecy b o y: you were on a bus at 1 am?
jared: well a couple years ago
jared: it was routine
jared: i did the bus thing today at 7:27 but in LA, not pomona
jared: and the bus bench sleeping thing was in indio
prophecy b o y: wow, how is the bus thing going?
jared: but anyways,
jared: wonderful
jared: but like, i dont know. a couple years back i had this epiphamy (sp?)
jared: and basically, it made everything good. every shitty thing in my life, which at one point was EVERYTHING in my life . . .
prophecy b o y: epiphany
jared: it was all good
jared: zanks
prophecy b o y: yeah, things get better, blah blah. i know. i've just been having a hard to accepting that over and over again
jared: being dumped. and people dieing, and threatening to die. and losing my apartment. and not having a car. and stuff.
prophecy b o y: i use to believe, or i still do, that it's all about teaching you something about yourself
prophecy b o y: or about life
prophecy b o y: or about love
prophecy b o y: or about death
prophecy b o y: and it's just like learning the same lessons over and over again
prophecy b o y: at first it was enlightening, but now it's just getting annoying
prophecy b o y: and i'm ready to move on to more lessons, so it's like, what am i doing wrong?
prophecy b o y: why am i going in circles?
prophecy b o y: or is that all there is?
prophecy b o y: did i learn it all?
prophecy b o y: or did i learn all that what was meant for me in my life this time aruond to learn
prophecy b o y: am i done?
prophecy b o y: or do i just wait.
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