pinch me, i think i'm daydreaming
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3:22 p.m.

so i spent all day today talking to this really cute kid online. i met him on gay.com the other day, and we buddylisted each other. so all day today at work we kept talking. so he sent me a picture of him to look at. i traced it back to it's directory, ::not hard, i just erased the file name::, and i found all of his files on his website and previous websites. so i got to see a TON of pictures. so here i am talking to kid, and we're getting along, and as i'm talking i'm looking at many pictures of him, his friends, his life, his place, places he's been to. and we're joking back and forth, we're kind of flirting. and we're getting to know each other. i think i really like him.

but how much of myself should i invest in this? i'm so afraid we're gonna really like each other and build ourselves up to this image in our minds, and when we meet, it's not going to live up to that. it's like when you read a book and watch the movie version, ironically we talked about that. when you read a book, you build these images of characters and places to be whatever you want them to be based on the descriptions given. they can be as grand and as beautiful as you want. but when you see the movie version, you're either somewhat satisfied or disappointed, because unless you have total control over costume and set design, they're never going to do justice to what you've imagined.

i really like this kid. i think he's cute. it's kind of nice to daydream a little and feel like you've finally found someone you click with.

and then you wake up.

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