a little bit o' lovin
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9:10 a.m.
when i'm walkin, i strut my stuff,
i'm so
strung
out
actually i'm hungover. i don't wanna be here. i'm dehydrated and sleep deprived. but it was worth it.
yesterday was unexpected. i didn't plan on doing anything except go to the gym. which i did. but afterwards, i was completely lazy and bored and decided to do nothing. so i did nothing.
sounds great. sounds nice and relaxing, quiet, and whatever. i was going crazy. i had to leave. so i left.
i drove around, just driving, no destination in particular. i just needed to leave.
somehow, i ended up in newport beach. i don't know why or how, i just ended up there. i drove along the coast on pch. it was dark already so there wasn't a view. it would've been cool if it was during the day, because at least that would be something. but no, i was just driving throught these dark and winding roads. it was cool, i kind of got lost, but i realized where i was and it wasn't a problem or anything. but at this point i was tired. so i turned around and headed back towards home.
i got to the 605 and decided i was going to go to long beach, so i ended up not going home. i just expected to go into a bar, and drink maybe two beers or so and then leave. i went in, and it was karaoke night.
i didn't sing or anything, nor did i intend to. but i noticed there were some cute guys there. i just didn't really want to talk anyone, i just wanted to hang out and drink beer.
and i did just that. and i got hit on. by someone really cute. we talked for a little bit and he invited me over to his place after, and we talked some more. about all kinds things, from family and friends to our theories on life and sexuality. he was definitely stimulating my mind and my body. we got to making out and ended up having a very passionate night. i'm pretty tired. i got home pretty late or pretty early this morning. i didn't expect that to happen last night, but i'm glad it did. we're suppose to go on a date this friday. i hope it goes well. i hope this time it's going to be somewhat romantic.
we both seemed into each other, the cool thing was that he came up to me, and asked me back to his place. believe me when i say i needed an ego boost. not to say that he is the ego boost. but when a cute guy approaches you, it makes you feel special and cute too. and i haven't felt cute in a really long time.
okay enough of that.
i decided to hold off on the haircut. we'll see. maybe i don't need one.
my friends, rosie and scott, are getting married. so, i got together with rosie and tine to plan it. missa's the maid of honor, but she was away all week. so we decided to start. the whole time, tine was really serious about deciding what was what. she had good reason to, the wedding's in early june. that leaves us a little over five months to plan everything. not really smart when planning a wedding. so anyway, as tine was trying to get things done, rosie and i are over there laughing and joking about what we want for the wedding. tine is stressed out and probably because we're not taking it seriously, or rosie anyway, who is a major part of this ceremony. but it was still fun, and i have faith in us that we will come out with something romantic and memorable. but it wasn't til later when i went out for a cigarette, and i pictured rosie walking down the aisle in a wedding dress. rosie. little rosie's getting married. and then it hit me, we're growing up. tine's married with a kid, rosie and scott are getting married, everyone is growing up. where am i going? am i ever going to get married? or have a committment ceremony? i want one. but when? we're no longer little raver kids any more. we're all growed up and gettin hitched and all. it's crazy. it's definitely and eye opener.
so that's pretty much my weekend.
i think i want a haircut. we'll see.
oh much thanks to lovercraft and ankou for signing my guestbook this past weekend. i had just put it up and was glad to find two new entries! very cool. another form of an ego boost. it makes me feel special. so please sign my guestbook for those of you who read my diary! boost my ego a little!
okay, i'm tired, i'm dehydrated, i need water and a cigarette.
until then.
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