red bull and coffee
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10:33 a.m.i think i will be more aware of drinking red bull and coffee late at night. i had the strangest experience last night. i went to bed, pretty tired and exhausted from an eventful sunday/weekend. but i felt my body go into fits as it did not want to sleep. but my mind slept just fine, except for the momentary awakenings in the middle of the night and the eventual lapse into an intensely strange dream.
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i was on an island or a remote desert location. kind of post apocolyptic. many faces i knew were there. a few that i didn't. some old guy was digging his grave. i kind of recognized him, maybe from an old t.v. show. actually (this is kind of funny) but he reminded me of that one guy from "i dream of jeanie." not the main guy, but his friend. he was digging a hole and then i noticed it was big enough to fit a coffin. and i stopped him. i grabbed him from behind and held his arms behind his back and asked him what he was doing. i told him that he didn't have to, but he insisted that he was useless and too old to live in this world. i told him that it wasn't true. he thanked me and we continued back to the camps.
there was this large structure made of pipes and metal. we walked over to it. all of sudden, this small creatures of unknown origin began to accumlate out of the ground. they looked like rodents or insects. they started to attack everything or us. i don't remember what, but i think i was told by that guy or someone else that they are a threat of some sort. so i spent the rest of the dream climbing the structure after the little creatures and killing them. i remember having a good fight with one of them. i woke up feeling triumphant.
< /dream>so the party was fun. i think having an accessible computer in the vicinity of me while i'm drunk is a little dangerous. i have a tendency to write. but i'm glad i didn't go all emo like i usually do. there really isn't reason for me to be emo. things are actually quite good for me, except for my financial situation and stress at work (which isn't anything new), everything else in my life is pretty good. i'm very fortunate to have mikey and erik in my life, along with their entire company. they've been really good to me and they've made my summer one of the most eventful and rewarding summers to date.
one of the things i've noticed while hanging out with them is that everyone seems to be a couple. i'm all around all these cute and fun (and not to mention smart) boys, but they're all with each other. and that's pretty cool cuz i get to know them as friends and not as potential hook ups, which sometimes has been an issue in the past. so i think i want to be a couple. well, it's not like i'm not happy being single and having a bit more freedom than everyone else. i just think it would be nice to show up to one of their parties with someone on my arm. someone i can be kind of couply with around everyone, too. i don't know how or if that will work out, but it's nice to dream sometimes.
yoga was fun and increasingly difficult. i'm discovering that my body just doesn't have the strength needed to sustain some of those exercises. i'm going to need to practice some of those exercises before i go back to it in three weeks. i know there will be yoga sessions at burning man, so i know i won't totally be away from it for too long when i return. afterwards, mikey and erik and i went to lunch at this indian food place not too far from where i live now. it's amazing how much i still don't know about the area i grew up in. it was good food.
after they dropped me off at home, i got ready to go out with a friendster. we've been messaging a bit and talking on the phone a bit this past week. being that i'll be pretty much out of town until september, we decided to squeeze in a meet and greet this weekend. it was fun. we pretty much toured around long beach. he's never really been around here, since he lives up in north hollywood, so i got to show him some cool places in downtown long beach. we went to blue cafe and watched some blues band and played some pool. we had dinner in belmont shores at shorehouse cafe. and then he wanted to see the beach. in order to keep up, i had a red bull, followed by coffee at marina pacifica starbucks which lead me to the beginning of this entry.
all in all, this weekend was fun. this is my last free weekend before the burn. i wonder what kind of person i'll be in september. from this day on, it's going to be about getting ready for the burn and visiting old family. i know once i get on that plane on thursday, i'll be able to relax and sit back for five days. and then i get back, it's four days of preparation, and friday night, we leave for the playa. (i realize i'm constantly repeating this information, but it seems to be the only way i can keep reminding myself of what needs to be done. it all just seems unreal.)
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