and the credits will roll for m
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12:51 p.m.i've decided that the most efficient way for me right now to get over my momentary emotional downfall is to turn to the wonders of chocolate.
this is for today only. i've been really good at not using these means for comfort, but today is an exception. the feeling i get whenever i hear about m and someone else has returned. i had thought it was long gone, but i was wrong. i'm okay now. i'm doing better. but, i'm possibly heading for a tummy ache. but i have deemed this morning that today will be a good day. and SO IT SHALL!
i won't let this shit get the better of me. not this time. and not ever again.
it's over. i've done all that i can do and more for us to be together. and nothing's worked. if he doesn't feel the same for me, there is nothing i can do about that. i've proved this through every means possible. and we're not meant to be. i must take it for what it was and learn all that i can from it. and i have, and i've learned a lot about myself. i should be emotionally and physically satisfied from this experience. it should be done.
time to move on.
"m" is no more. i shall not speak of him anymore. i will find other things to talk about it. and if nothing else exists, i will pursue another topic. i'm taking control. i'm not about him. i'm about me. there's another story out there for me. if this was a movie, it would be long over by now. it's time to write another.
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