tortuously pleasurable evening
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3:16 a.m.jimmy rules. he is the cutest, smartest, most interesting guy i've ever met. i am totally in love with the guy.
tonight was a blast. allie and asha finally arrived at my place and we proceeded to long beach to pick up jimmy. on the drive up i was able to get to know jimmy a little bit more. he's a student in graphic design and he wants to get into web design. i think that's totally cool. we have that in common. we're both artists and i love that.
we finally make it to the club, and he's all about hangin out with me. it was really cute. he wanted to sit with me and talk. he was really blown by the people that were there. he's this smalltown kid from victorville and he wasn't use to the LA crowd. we talked more about books that we read, types of movies we'd like to direct. and get this! he's into kids' shows and cartoons just as much as i am! ie. nickolodean!
towards the end of the night, i really had this urge to dance, and he wasn't really into that. so he told me to go ahead while he went to the restroom. so i'm dancing on the dancefloor and he comes back and drags me to the middle. and he starts to dance with me! it was so cute! usually when guys can't dance, it turns me off. but with him, he knew that he's not that great of a dancer and he was trying so hard. but it wasn't bad at all. it was just really cute.
this is torture. he's the first guy that i've been out with that i really liked and didn't make a move on or kiss. i really wanted to kiss him so bad. when we would talk, our mouths would get really close because the music was so loud. you don't even know how tempted i was to just press my lips against his. this boy is unbelievable. i thought going out with him would disenchant my crush a little, but it only heightened it indefinitely. when we were sitting, we would kinda touch a little bit, by accident, and as well on the dance floor. it gave me that tingly feeling, i haven't felt since m. everytime m would touch me by grazing his arm against mine while we worked together, i'd lose all feeling in my legs. well, something like that. well, the same thing was with jimmy. instant sexual stimulation. being near him is torture.
but i love it so. i hope he had a good enough time to want to see more of me. i really hope so. i can see us hanging out more. i just hope there's room and enough interest for me to be a part of his life.
god, i hope so.
but, all in all, tonight was a blast. asha and allie are dolls! they are so much fun to hang out with, i'm so glad to know them!
well, i'm out. i have to get up in four hours. then, it's work work work, then party party party! then maybe i'll call jimmy on sunday.
is it customary to call a guy the next day? do you think i should wait til sunday or later? what do you think?? i don't want to fuck this up as usual! i want to do the right thing. HELP!!
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