chin up, tiger
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9:24 a.m.i woke up this morning feeling lethargic and depressed for some reason. i don't know why i'm like this. i don't know why i have to alienate myself. i keep shutting people out and pushing people away. i don't want to be like this. but, i don't want to be all happy and bubbly all the time. i just don't want to be down like this. my attitude sucks right now. it's like i'm just waiting for things to magically get better. applying no effort what's so ever.
am i lethargic because i'm depressed? or am i depressed because i feel lethargic?
i want to get in shape, i want to feel better about myself. but i can't get myself to be active. and the less active i feel, the more depressed i get. i feel lazy and guilty of it. i don't want to be this way. i just don't.
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