queer thoughts
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4:38 p.m.oh how i love my new netflix account, let me count the ways. so far i've caught up with sex and the city season 4 and now i'm re-visiting queer as folk season 3. don't you just love the glamourous idealization of material possessions and promiscuous sex? it makes me wanna get out and about again and live the high life of booze, drugs, and... well... sex. of course, my life now is so much different than how it used to be. i'm a lot more tame now. my goals are leaning a bit more towards domestication and self-worth and all that crap. but still, i'd like to get back into partying a bit. just as long as i stay responsible and safe. the thing about queer as folk is that amidst all the partying and fucking, they still advocate safe sex and consequences.
i'm still unsure about what the future holds for me. whether or not i'll find domesticity with a partner, i know that i have a lot to look forward to. school's comin along pretty good and i'm working towards a promotion at work. (and starbucks is well-known for treating partners who move up pretty well.) i've also been seeing this chiropractor for stress-relief treatments. she's been working on opening gateways along my spine and so far it's worked wonders for me. if anything, it gives me a chance to relax on a massage table with relaxing meditative music, while relieving the tension in my neck and lower back. it's a pretty alternative procedure than your usual everyday back adjustment. it has more to do with energy flow and communication between nerve cells in my somatic nervous system. plus it helps that she's really cool and educated in alternative religions. we had a discussion today about paganism and shamanism. she spent time in peru with shamans in the amazon. anyway. things are lookin up.
i've felt a bit lonely lately. it seems like i don't have time to date. but i think i want to. i think i'm ready. ready to start that whole process of meeting people and developing substantial relationships. i'm tired of the hookups (i haven't had any in so long... i just haven't been into it). i really want that house and the dog and cat with the sun shining through the kitchen window as we read the morning paper to a plate of eggs and toast drinking starbucks coffee on our way to work or school. maybe one day. who knows?
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