regretfully choosing
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2:30 p.m.why is it that when one thing in your life finally comes together, everything else has to fall apart?
is it me? am i letting everyone down by following my needs and finally getting to do what i want to do? or is it just universally not suppose to work out?
maybe life isn't meant to be perfect. (duh) maybe the path that i have with certain friends aren't suppose to coincide with the path of other friends. (duh) and maybe i'll eventually have to choose one direction over the other. (duh)
even though this shouldn't be surprising, it still hurts to let down someone else. no matter what i choose, someone will get hurt, and i don't like it. i don't want to hurt anyone. i don't want to let anyone down. but above all, i shouldn't let myself down. if i regret something, it makes it all not worth it. i don't want to regret.
but what happens when both options are equally great and equally special and no matter what, each choice will leave you regretting the other.
suddenly, this is no longer about my birthday plans.
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