christalle's birthday
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11:06 a.m.so last night we went to wasabi's in downtown long beach for christalle's birthday. it was karaoke night. i didn't expect to drink as much (it seems lately i'm always saying that), but i ended up drinking lots. again. but, oh my god was it so much fun. all her friends ended up coming that night, and even my cousin. i sang a few songs. it was great. i seem to always have so much fun with these guys. christalle got wasted, which was good for her. i'm glad she got tore up on her birthday. she seemed like she had a good time. she's probably gonna hate all of us today. but she's goin to vegas this weekend. so she doesn't have room for talk!
i, on the other hand, slept in. i woke up in time to get ready for work, but did the usual "i'm gonna rest my eyes for a moment and end up waking up two hours late for work" thing. carina had to call and wake me up. i was having some strange dream with everyone we were with last night. i don't remember much, but i just remember everyone being there. i know i didn't want the night to end last night. i must of took it over into my unconsciousness. i don't even remember what time we got home last night. oh well. it was fun. compared to monday morning, i'm much more satisfied inside about the previous night, and i didn't meet a guy, sleep with one, or wake up in a bed next to one. although it was extremely nice to do that on monday morning. it just wasn't a fulfilling sexual experience as far as being with good friends and mutually caring for each other the way we do. but, i'm not worried. i know in time the right guy will come along, and it will all be worth it.
christalle said something last night that i believe to be a little more true than i've thought in the previous years. she had said that whatever you do on new year's will kind of be what you're going to do for the rest of the year. this year, i spent it with these guys out at city walk and drank and had a great time. and it seems like so far, we've been sorta doing that. which is fine, cuz we're all great together. last year, i went to this bad rave and that was when m told me that he never really was with me, when i had thought we were starting off really slow and that we were working towards something. but, he had changed his mind and decided that we were and will remain friends. so i spent all of last year depressed and obsessed over him. the two years before that, we went raving. and it seems like those two years were lost to raving and pills. so i'm kind of happy with how this year is going so far. it's been very thematic towards my friendships. which is nice. i seemed to have lost the importance of having good friends in the previous years. i was more focused on finding a guy. and what i need is to be strong and independent and able to carry pleutonic relationships with people, both guys and girls.
ah, this was meant to be short entry. i have a ton of work that needs to be done. i must get back to it.
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